a tension growing in my soul
an edge of reality
I fear to let go
a force to drive me
out of control of my reality
I'm feeling mortality

everyday I survive
my heart pumps the blood
that keeps me alive
but what is it
that drives my heart
should have been the question
from the start
but I'm in a world of illusion
illusion with the power to control
to confuse
is the illusions goal
daze, amuse and console
the protective caring motherly role
nurturing me away from reality
leaving me stranded
on the edge of mortality

hunger inside, hunger out
to feed two hungers
makes me shout
at the universe in vain
what cruel twist of fate could this be
why am I always driven by reality
when reality should be driven by me
why can't we see
darkness hiding within the light
always prepared to smite
our hopes into fears
I'm driven to tears
for the love I can't express
its been oppressed
for getting in the way
I'm being chased by mortality

eventually, inevitably
the world becomes my foe
because I cannot let go
my relentless cling to life
my mind becomes the knife that slices
through those I love
and I dine on the dove
that used to be my peace

no rest from the perpetual test
to survive a world full of lies
in control of my reality
dictating the price of my mortality
on an upward sliding scale
but I cannot fail
I must survive to smash the lies
that would destroy me
deprive me of my humanity
oppress me to the reality
of an animal
scratching, biting, fighting to be
seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting,

feeling mortality